by PAM GODWIN
I try to forget her.
It’s impossible.
Growing up together, Conor and I shared all our firsts.
First love, first kiss, first…
Not all our firsts.
We were sixteen the night she was violently assaulted while I helplessly watched.
I’ll never forget the sounds of her suffering.
Or my inconsolable agony when she left Oklahoma.
Years later, she returns to honor our teenage pact.
Except the boy she loved is gone, replaced by a ruthless cattle rancher knotted with secrets.
She doesn’t know my dark cravings or the trails of sin that lead to her.
I don’t deserve her, but one truth remains.
She’s mine.
"We're stronger than hellos and goodbyes and deeper than beginnings and ends."
For my first read of Pam Godwin's, I would say this was a definite win for me. Her descriptions are vivid and the pictures she paints with her words are fantastic! Her cadence was easy to follow and her words flowed so smoothly, making the movement almost feel rhythmic. So easy to read. I just had a really good time getting immersed in this story and the actions and consequences of everything going on around these central characters. I'm excited for the next two books because I have already fallen in love with the characters and their direction.
FIRST AND FOREMOST, I feel like I must note that the assault discussed in the synopsis was very brutal. Very descriptive. Very.....horrific. But, having said that, I feel like it set the tone for me as the reader to understand the depth of Jake's devotion to Conor. As painful as it was to read and "live through it" with Conor, I couldn't put it down and I couldn't look away. I read it through one long, shocking, wide-eyed gasp. I knew at that moment, not only was this story going to be intense, but Jake's love was going to prove to be the kind you swoon and blush over. I just knew it. Profound in every sense of the word, he was going to save her from her own demons - his way.
Her rock.
Her champion.
Her lover.
Her protector.
The confidence in Jake was beyond intense. He knew Conor was IT for him...his future. I loved seeing him reign in his desires and needs just to protect Conor, but when he got to let it out and let her know the truth of his heart? Oh goodness, that was sexy. He was so strong and so determined, but so persistent and so patient. Jake was the epitome of strength and sexy mixed together. There was conviction in his soul and love in his heart, and he wanted nothing more than to take care of Conor.
"I'm everything when I'm with her and nothing without her."
Jake and Conor's dynamic was very interesting to read - the truest of loves defying all odds. I love it when an author's words can take me deep into the emotions the characters are feeling and dealing with, and Pam did that with finesse. I was completely caught up in it all and literally biting my nails throughout this entire book. Stomach-clenching good. Conor had some serious issues stemming from her assault, and the fact that Jake was the man that he was? This man put her first, no matter how difficult the decisions were. He also knew when to push Conor and when to change up his tactics. Jake really made this one amazing for me, but Conor stole the show with her strength and convictions. There was such a strength in her pain....in her self pity. In her retrospect. She was a neat character to learn and watch grow. Two very strong characters, with a story worth reading.
"Impatience is my enemy. Insatiable desire is my weakness."
Surprisingly, I was expecting some deviously HOT and sexy times. I mean, she said this was dark and sexy.....so I was expecting that. Yet, I didn't necessarily get that. (Don't hate - remember my rating up there) Even though there were some hot times - I'm not denying that one bit, I felt like more heartfelt emotions are what I got - and that may have been because of Jake. He seriously had the patience of a saint. But, as naughty as Jake was, and as sexy as his thoughts were, he had nothing but respect and patience for Conor and everything that she went through. I really enjoyed their story and smiled throughout quite a bit of it. Whether it was Conor's sass or Jakes persistence, I couldn't turn the pages quick enough. I wanted to soak up their love. It was a beautiful thing to read.
I am not normally one to read suspense and action within my romances. Nothing against it, it just doesn't always work for me. Well, leave to an author that knows her craft very well to change my mind. Pam was able to infuse this story with some sexy times, some suspenseful reality, some gut-wrenching pain, and a ton of pleasure....she had it all in this book! I started this at midnight....read until 3 am because I lost track of time, and then finished it the next day. I will be reading more of Pam's work; no truer truths than that!! I loved her words.
"You don't need me to fix you. You need me to sit with you in the sadness."
~BEE
PURCHASE
~MEET PAM GODWIN~
New York Times and USA Today Bestselling author, Pam Godwin, lives in the Midwest with her husband, their two children, and a foulmouthed parrot. When she ran away, she traveled fourteen countries across five continents, attended three universities, and married the vocalist of her favorite rock band.
Java, tobacco, and dark romance novels are her favorite indulgences, and might be considered more unhealthy than her aversion to sleeping, eating meat, and dolls with blinking eyes.
~CONNECT WITH PAM~
ARC REVIEW
AFFILIATE LINKS USED
COPY PURCHASED/GIFTED OUT
Wow you definitely convinced me to try another new to me author! I love your review Bee!
ReplyDeleteYAY!!! That's the idea, Bunny!! I hope you love this one!
DeleteGreat review.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Zilpha!!
Delete